Dirty Crown: Covington, book 7 a dark reverse harem college romance (Covington High) by Amelia Winters

Author:Amelia Winters [Winters, Amelia]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Amelia Winters
Published: 2022-11-17T16:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 10

I was called into the dean’s office first thing in the morning. My knees felt weak and my hands were shaking when I drove to the college and I wished I wasn’t alone.

My Kings all had left for school an hour before I got the call. They were diving back into their studies, but I was waiting to find out my future.

If only Avery hadn’t dragged me into the situation with Seymour, I could have slipped back in with minimal consequences. Even if Ivan didn’t advocate for me directly, everybody knew who I was. Everybody knew I was loaded, and could cause a world of trouble if I wanted.

They didn’t know I wasn’t like a lot of kids who had grown up with wealth, I didn’t use it as a weapon. In fact, my money still made me feel slightly embarrassed at times, ashamed to be rich now when most of the world still struggled to survive.

I always felt like I hadn’t earned it, so I didn’t deserve it. Maybe I’d get over that once day, but for now it wasn’t helping me deal with my current situation.

I’d even used Ivan’s influence to help Ryker and Kingston, but it hadn’t helped me so far.

When I got out of my car, I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I was trying something new lately, focusing on the positive instead of getting tangled up in the negative thoughts that always took over my head. I knew it wasn’t going to change my life or anything, I wasn’t one of those ‘manifest your destiny’ types, but I was tired of being scared all the time.

And that’s what it boiled down to, my anxiety was driven by fear. I’d lived in that state for so long that it had become normal for me. When I wasn’t afraid, I was waiting for something to happen. It was as if I was constantly holding my breath, and that left me exhausted and anxious a lot of the time.

I was tired of feeling like that, so I’d read online that focusing on the good in my life might help. It needed to center myself before big events like this, so that even if it didn’t go my way I wasn’t going to let the blow to my fragile stability send me spinning out of control.

I guess that’s what it was mainly about. I was tired of feeling like I was just balancing on the razor’s edge. On one side was violent madness where I used my money and power to fly to Austria and gun down the Kostins like the dogs they were. Where slit Maksim’s throat instead of merely slicing his chest, and I shot Ilya after making him watch.

The other side of that was the one I pursued now, with my deep breathing and positive affirmations. That was the side where I gave mercy and sought peace. I wouldn’t ignore the world’s problems, but I wouldn’t let them consume me. I could

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